just had to fork out over $100 to my new drawing class and yet i still need a few more supplies. geez, all of my money saved up for a trip to las vegas for Consumer Electronic Show, wit my gf and friends is goin down the drain. luckily most of my paycheck now can go to the trip, now that i payed off the rest of my laptop. but stupid school costs so much god damn money...

everyone that read my last journal should just forget i wrote it. things arent bad anymore and i think i did good on this anatomy test. only thing thats sucks now is that i have to go to work tonight

well after a long time of not updating my journal i guess its time to. another one of those great, wonderful times, when nothing seems to go right and depression kicks in,in the worst way. dont we all love those times. well im not goin to go into y im in this mood cause its kind of personal, im just writing this to get a tiny bit of it out

Considering that my last journal entry was kinda rude and depressing, i thought i might need to write something a lil more happier. well im not depressed or mad at deviantart anymore, but i still think sheezy art is better. well i havent been drawin and i need to get inspiration to do so again. ive doodled a lil but nothin good, and when my stuff isnt good its pretty bad XD . well at least im doin better at school. maybe i should stop rambling on lol. for all u people that have looked at my page, thnx a lot.

ok im tired of feelin bad about myself and jealous of other people that have more talent of me. i say screw it all. ill stick to wat i can do even if i get no attention to my work. right now im takin a break from drawin cause lately ive been happier not doin it then worrying about doin a good job on it. i never used to get jealous but now i do so stoppin for awhile is much better than hurting my emotions. for awhile ill only be on deviantart to check my messages and occasionally look for things i like. i plan on giving more attention on the lil people and not the ones that already have a watch list of 100 people. if the lil people are anythin like me then they would like their work to be noticed and not ignored. oh i almost forgot, sheezyart has A LOT less members and yet my page views go up alot faster than on deviant art. i think sheezy art is more down to earth than DA is